I've always had a complicated relationship with food.
Food has always been important to me. I like it. I like to eat it. I like to cook it. I like to feed other people with it. And given my tendency to obsess about pretty much everything, I also obsess about it, and take it to extremes. I either eat too much of it, or not enough of it. I'm wired like that.
Once I went for about two years eating nothing except french fries, Frostys, microwave popcorn, and MGD Light. This is not an exaggeration.
I've gone to the other extreme many, many times, once letting myself get up to the point where I was almost 60 pounds overweight. I was miserable.
I've also counted calories down to the last tiny millicalorie for long periods of time, and I don't want to live the rest of my life like that. It stresses me out. And I love food too much to let it stress me out all the time.
But I'm slowly, slowly learning. What I want, and what I need, is to have a healthy relationship with food, one where I eat healthy stuff most of the time, eat a piece of cake if I really want one, and not stress or obsess about food for 18 hours a day.
It's slow going.
But I'm getting there.
I think the lightbulb moment came for me when I realized that good quality food, simply prepared, is the way to go. If I can eat things that aren't processed or covered in yellow cheese dust 90% of the time, everything else will fall into line.
Unless I eat the whole cake at once. Then it's still a problem, I guess.
Well anyway, go make this sandwich. It's really good.
WHAT YOU NEED: (per sandwich)
1 ciabatta or telera roll (something square-ish, about the size of a portabella) Splurge on the fresh bread. Come on, you know it's better.
1 portabella mushroom
1 tsp. of olive oil
1/2 tsp. of grill seasoning
1 slice of swiss cheese
2 strips of bacon, cooked
2-3 slices of tomatoes
WHAT YOU DO:
Preheat your oven to 400 degrees. While you're waiting for it to heat up, heat the olive oil in a small skillet on the stovetop. Put the mushroom, cap down, into the oil. Sprinkle the grill seasoning over it, and cook it over medium heat for 3-4 minutes.
Put the bread in the oven to get all crunchy and good.
Now flip the mushroom over, and top with tomatoes, bacon and cheese. Let it cook until the cheese is melted.
Take the bread out of the oven and slice it in half, a la sandwich bun. Put the mushroom on the bread and eat it all up.
I served this with a small salad, and it was delightful.